Blessing or Curse?

here we go again.
hellllo

i'm back

and i have lots of question in my head

yes, as an over thinker i have stupid questions in my head

this time it's:

" is it a blessing or a curse to feel everything so deeply? "

for me, now, it's a curse.

when i decide to write something it means i have something going on.

and now i kinda think that it is a curse.

but sometimes i also thinks that it's a blessing. a total blessing

maye i just take it in a wrong way

maybe it was my fault, no not fault but it's like i keep forgetting to remind myself
that

too much is not good. barely everything that is too much is not good.

yes.

maybe all we have to do.
or. all i have to do is

balancing.

for the good times, enjoy it, but don't be too happy, don't be so narrow minded that everything is going to be ok from now on, that everything is fine, that you don't have to do anything, it's the end, you found your happiness. 

yes i was wrong

we can't find a static happiness

cause life goes and goes and goes on.

to be able to be happy, one must balance the things in life. one must know that everything isn't going to be always alright, all good but it doesn't mean we can't be happy. there's always gonna be a chance to be happy, as there's always things to be grateful for. 

i chose to be happy, so why would i waste my time being moody and unhappy all these time?

"it's a beautiful world out there, so open your eyes, sing your best songs, and spread your smiles to the people around you"

(p.s. these are photos of my crazy best friend and she's a really cheerful person)