pre. tend. ing

pura-pura. 

dia tersenyum

tapi tidak senang.

dia ada disana

tapi tak dianggap.

dia mencoba berbicara

tapi tak didengar.

dia punya jawaban

tapi disimpannya.

namun,

mereka tidak jahat

juga

mereka tidak baik.

mungkin

mereka tidak tertarik.

mungkin 

mereka terlalu asik.

mungkin 

dia yang tak pernah berpartisipasi.

itu bukan salah dia

ataupun mereka.

tapi keduanya

terus berpura-pura

seakan tidak ada apa-apa.

Ukuran Bahagia.

Tapi, lagi-lagi apa ukuran bahagia?

lama tidak menulis. 

kesannya sudah banyak menulis, padahal baru 2 posts.

hallo lagi!

i'm back!

selama ini tidak menulis bukan karena tidak hidup.

bukan karena tidak ada apa-apa.

hanya belum ingin. 

selama ini, 

saya bertanya-tanya apa ukuran bahagia?

apa yang harus kita lakukan agar jadi bahagia?

mereka bilang bahagia adalah pilihan kita.

apa benar?

mereka bilang hidup selalu punya pilihan.

apa benar?

Apa semua orang punya batas waktu kebahagiaan?

dari yang saya amati,

saya tidak tahu apakah itu benar atau salah.

kadang menurut saya, 

keadaan memaksa kita untuk tidak bahagia.

apa saya salah?

apa cara saya melihat masalah salah?

apa hanya saya yang merasa bahagia bisa expired?

dan seseorang tidak bisa bahagia selamanya?

isn't there such a thing as happily ever after?

... 

kata dia saya terlalu pesimis melihat hidup.

apa itu karena lebih suka menyimpan masalah?

apa karena saya tidak berani menyuarakan pikiran saya?

apa semua salah saya?

Ada orang yang bisa tertawa lepas,

ceria setiap saat.

lalu saya berpikir 

apakah dia selalu merasa demikian?

apa dia pernah menangis tersedu-sedu 

saat tertimpa masalah?

atau walaupun dia sedih

dia tetap bersyukur?

apa setelah itu dia akan dapat tertawa lagi?

apakah kebahagiaan itu tergantung keadaan  

atau

semua itu tegantung persepsi orang melihatnya?

semoga jawabannya tergantung persepsi orang melihatnya.

karena saya masih percaya semua orang berhak merasa bahagia.

xoxo, one confused Naomi. 

Tragic Life.

Sometimes i consider my life as tragic.
no i am not exaggerating by saying " Tragic "
because it really is.

About last month, me and my friends watch Bruno Mars Concert : The Moon Shine Jungle Tour.
it was amazing. i really love all of his songs, and his performance with all the choreography, the interaction with all the audience are just amazeballs.
But, after the show, i went back home, then slept.
The next morning, when i woke i had this painful stomachache.
and then i didn't come to school for 2 days.
i think it was because i had this stomach ache because i forgot to eat.
clumsy me.

the other tragic moment was,
when i cut my hair. On early November last year i decided to cut my hair short.
like really short. then, i went to a place, there i met my old friend. but then it become heart breaking, because the old friend kinda didn't notice me so.. oh by the way he is a good looking guy.
then i remember, on the 8th grade i made this promise with my Bestie Kimmy, that we will cut our hair short if by any change somebody broke our heart.

well oh well, is that count as karma? cause i totally forget about the promise, does it count as i broke the promise? hehe coz right after (well not technically right after) i cut my hair i had my heart broken.
what a tragic life.

The other Tragic moment that currently happened to me :
about 3 days ago, during the recess my friend told me and my other friends
" you know what, yesterday when i was at the course, this guy(from another school) told me that he knew someone that named naomi, the white girl, with big nose..."
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!
I couldn't stop my self to laugh.
but back then when my friend said " this guy knew me" i thought like : oh good i get noticed by someone. Before the "big nose" part i was happy with that statement, but then,
here we go, tragic.

But oh well, what could i do?
i should accept the fact.
though i still don't like that guy!
but i just think that the moment was kind of Tragic in a LOL way.

what A tragic Life?

XOXO, N.M.S.

DECISION.  (repost)

to write or not to write?

recently i've been enjoying reading other people's blog

so the idea came to me : " what about writing my own blog? "

So i made this decision to write a blog!

this blog will be The Journal of my-unpredictable-crazy-tragic-bitter-sweet-life.

So, as A starter here are things about me :


1. Mathilda Maria Naomi Sunggono.
2. 15 years old.

3. doing DIY.
4. laugh on stupid things.

5. love my best friends.
6. the youngest kid in my family.

7. Daniel Radcliffe.
8. listen to my favorite songs over and over again.

9. dancing.

10. i can't sing.

11. but i really singing.( one of my problem )

couldn't resist.

12. forget things easily.

13. i have 3 crazy siblings.
14. OWL.

15. stalking people.
16. hang with my crazy friends.

17. i love surprises.
18. an introvert.

19. love to do grandma stuff (crochet, sewing, etc.)
20. korean dramas.

21. kimsoohyun,yonghwa,yoonshiyoon.
22. Running man.

Sisters for life

23. being weird.

24. flowers.

25. Candles.

26. making nicknames.

27. make people laugh.

28. gossip.

29. eating Duck!

30. life goal : to be happy.

HAHA Sorry not sorry dibon